13 January 2011

Thankfulness:New Semester

Well, I must say, writing in this blog every day has proved to be a greater challenge than I can handle, with my second semester of college rolling.  However, I am continuing to meditate on my theme, Thankfulness, and will post as often as I can.  But, for the time being, I would like to point out how amazing it is to be back at NCU! I already feel friendships and relationships growing and maturing.  God is going to rock my life this semester! I am so ready and willing for God to completely change me. I am ready to take the next steps in my relationship with God. I want to grow in myself and find my identity in Him. College is the time when people say you figure out who you truly are, and I am up and ready for the challenge. God, let the semester begin!

07 January 2011

Thankfulness:Alone Time

Day 9: Alone Time
Being around lots of people all the time always keeps life exciting and interesting; however, I do enjoy my alone time.  Being in the busyness of the crowd, I can sometimes become so unaware of personal issues I need to work through.  For me, it is healthy to have regular doses of alone time to refresh myself. 


During these times alone I am able to reflect on everything happening in my life and to spend some time just thinking.  In the quietness and stillness of being alone, thoughts flow effortlessly.  Sometimes I spend these times just sitting in silence.  Sometimes I listen to music.  I also read my bible, write, and pray.  These times alone are all about me and God, and it's the most wonderful time spent! 


In times like these I have had my most intense moments of surrender to God.  I have overcome obstacles and heard God speaking to me.  Moments like these are so intimate, I can't quite describe them.  Sometimes, God just fills me with unexplainable joy, while other times my heart is broken for all the things that break His.  I have had some life-changing experiences when I simply give some time to be alone with God--it's so worth it!


I have had the greatest opportunities to be alone over winter break.  Two of the three weeks I've been home, my family has been gone all day at work and school, so I've had the entire weekdays to myself.  I have to say, it has been absolutely wonderful.  Not only have I gotten a lot of other stuff done, such as reading, working out, blogging, cleaning, cooking, crocheting, and watching t.v. (things i love to do, but hardly have time to do), but I've also had my quiet times with God.  I've really made an effort to give God the first part of my day.  I've spent this time reading a lot out of my bible, doing devotions, praying, and listening to worship music.  It is so peaceful and comforting.  It is such a good feeling to be in His presence!


I am so thankful to God that when I am still in His presence, He works in me and through me.  He opens my eyes to things I am otherwise unaware of during the craziness of life.  He speaks to me and heals me.  I am very thankful that God always gives me opportunities where I can be alone, for He knows that I need it.  I love God with everything in me!  Spending time with Him just makes it all the more clear that He is all I need.  He is the air I breathe--always forever!  


Here's the lyrics to one of my favorite songs!


Always Forever - Phil Wickham


You are the hand that catches my fall
You are the friend that answers my call
You are my day, You are my night
You are my love and all of my life

You are the love I need
You are the air I breathe
You are my love my life always forever
I would lay down my life
Just to be by Your side
You are my love my life always forever

You are the grace that covers my sin
You’re everything the beginning and end
You have my soul, my heart and my mind
You have my love and all of my life

Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, forever

06 January 2011

Thankfulness:Strength

Day 8: Strength
Some days I just feel like I do not have the strength to handle everything.  Sometimes the trials and hurts that I'm encountering seem too big for me to handle.  The thing is, is that they are too big for me to handle. Ugh...doesn't that just sound so depressing? Well, think again--it isn't! These hard times in our lives can certainly be too big for us, but they are NEVER too big for God!


It's such a great feeling to know that we don't have to be strong all the time...that even in our imperfections and weakness, God is strong! I am so glad that I don't have to deal with everything on my own, and that, of everyone and everything I could choose to depend on, I choose to depend on the King of Kings, the Lord of Lords, the Most High!  I'd say that's security! :)  God is so powerful, nothing and no one is a match to His greatness.  


So why do we try so hard to handle everything on our own?  I know I do.  We work so hard to be perfect people who can take care of ourselves.  We don't need anyone to help us.  We try to put on a mask that tells everyone around us that we don't struggle with anything. But what do we gain from this?  It means so much to talk with our peers about the things we're going through.  That's what the body of Christ is for, to carry each others' burdens and lift each other up.  We need that!  And we're holding back a true friendship when we choose to keep our struggles to ourselves.  Also, if we are open with others, it will make it easier for them to be open to us.  A true friendship is built when both people are transparent with each other and are willing to let go of their pride.  It really is a pride thing when we refuse to open up to our friends.  We're not perfect people, but God is.  His strength compensates for our weaknesses, and we need to give Him that.  We need to be willing to surrender our pride and show our weaknesses in order to recognize God as lord of our lives and give Him the glory.


To get this strength from God, however, I have to be right with God.  I have to fully surrender to God.  Yep, fully.  I need to be living for God.  I need to give up my weaknesses and to accept the strength He is reaching out to me.  I know that when I am living in right relationship with God, that no matter what comes my way, God is holding me up.  When we are walking in step with Christ, we don't have to change anything when tough times come up, because we are already prepared to fight.  


So, I am not thankful for the strength in and of myself, because that is not where it comes from.  I am thankful for the strength that God gives me--the only way I receive the strength to get me through everything and anything.  I am thankful that when I am weak, He is strong.  So when trials come my way, I do not have to be afraid, because what I have in me is not the only thing I have to depend on.  I can always depend on the power of God to strengthen me, and with Him I can do all things!


Some verses:


The Lord is my strength and my defense; he has become my salvation.  He is my God, and I will praise Him, my father's God, and I will exalt him. -- Exodus 15:2


In your unfailing love you will lead the people you have redeemed.  In your strength you will guide them to your holy dwelling.  -- Exodus 15:13


My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. -- 2 Corinthians 12:9


But David found strength in the Lord his God. -- 1 Samuel 30:6b


Look to the Lord and His strength; seek the Lord always. -- 1 Chronicles 16:11


Be strong and courageous!  Don't be afraid or discouraged because of the king of Assyria or his mighty army, for there is a power far greater on our side!  He may have a great army, but they are merely men.  We have the Lord our God to help us fight our battles for us! -- 2 Chronicles 35:7-8


So, if ever you feel burdened and weak, remember that God doesn't expect us to handle things on our own; He expects us to allow Him to handle them with us!



04 January 2011

Thankfulness:Friends

Day 7: Friends
Today I am very thankful for all my wonderful friends.  Friends are perhaps the most precious gift from God.  They are the people He has specifically put in your path to bless you.  There are so many amazing people that God has put in my life that I know God truly wants us to have people who are there for us.  


Even though friends have come and gone, the friends I have had have served a purpose for some time in my life. In some times of my life I have had friends help me through, and in other times I have had totally different people there to carry me along.  


God knows we as humans desire relationships with others; in fact, He is the one who gave us this desire.  He wants us to live together in harmony, building each other up and carrying each others' burdens.  It's such a wonderful thing to know you have someone who genuinely cares about you.


I am so thankful for every friend I have ever had.  Each friend has helped me in some way, and I wouldn't ever take a friendship back.  Although some friendships have changed and floated away, others still have grown stronger.  I have also made some new friends whom I feel as close to as any longtime friend I've had.  I am unbelievably thankful for the friends God has blessed me with recently.  In times when I have felt beat down by the trials of life, they have picked me up and restored me.  They have been there to encourage me and guide me to the one who heals all hurts.  They have inspired me to be who God made me.  They love me for who I am, but they also love me enough to want me to be better.  I am thankful to have friends whom I can relate to--those who are going through some of the same trials.  I am also thankful for the friends who are in completely different levels of life, but understand where I'm at.  


My friends have helped me so much.  It's great to have people you can tell anything to.  I love my friends like crazy!  I am so thankful to God for the wonderful gift of friendship. 


And it came to pass, when he had made an end of speaking unto Saul, that the soul of Jonathan was knit with the soul of David, and Jonathan loved him as his own soul. -- 1 Samuel 18:1-3 (New King James Version)


Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their labor: If either of them falls down, one can help the other up. But pity anyone who falls and has no one to help them up. -- Ecclesiastes 4:9-10 (NIV)


A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity. -- Proverbs 17:17 (NIV)


Thank you, God! I love you!


Ashley

03 January 2011

Thankfulness:Newness

Day 6: Newness
As the new year begins and everyone starts thinking about how they want their lives to change during the new year, I think about the newness of life that I have in Jesus.  I am reminded that I not only am able to start fresh each new year, but also each new day.  God's mercies are new every morning!  Isn't that something to be thankful for?!  


Everyone makes mistakes and there's always something that people want changed in their lives, but along with these constants, there is also the hope that God gives.  When we surrender our lives fully to Him, we become His children enveloped with unconditional love.  There is nothing we can do that will make Him stop loving us, as long as we do our bests to live a life pleasing to Him and surrender every part of ourselves.  When we fall, He is there to pick us back up.  He will set our feet on solid ground once again, no matter how many times we've already fallen.  It may seem like our lives are a constant attempt to not mess up, but the good thing is that God is merciful.  He knows that we are not perfect.  He knows the very inner parts of our heart and whether we desire to do our best.  He is full of love and forgiveness.  


Sometimes we become so beaten down by our past and our mistakes that we are unable to see God's gift of mercy.  When we are fixated on our mistakes and are not willing to let go and forget, it is hard for us to move forward.  In order to grow and better ourselves, we must forget the past and look to the future.  We must reach out and grasp the mercy God is giving us.  It is a free gift; we just need to accept it.  Feeling sorry for ourselves or being too hard on ourselves doesn't solve anything.  We need to accept the fact that we make mistakes and realize that no matter what happens or what we've done, God will cast our sins as far as the east is from the west--that's never ending.  Now isn't that a great thought?!


I am so very thankful that although I am weak, He is strong.  God is the one thing in my life that is always constant, even when I feel like my life is a constant battle to stop making mistakes.  I will close with one of my favorite quotes from one of my favorite books/movies:


Tomorrow is always fresh, with no mistakes in it. -- Anne of Green Gables


Some verses to reflect on:


But in your great mercy you did not put an end to them or abandon them, for you are a gracious and merciful God. -- Nehemiah 9:31


Praise be to the LORD, for he has heard my cry for mercy. -- Psalm 28:6


Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it.  But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead. -- Philippians 3:13


As far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us. -- Psalm 103:12


So this new year, wake up each morning knowing His mercy has set us free from the bondage of sin. Because of this we can live each new day better than the last!


Ashley

01 January 2011

Thankfulness:Snow!

Days 4 & 5: Snow December 30-31
So, thinking back on my week, these two days were so filled with joy because of the beautiful gift of winter precipitation, that I just had to put them together!


I am someone who absolutely loves winter, especially snow!  I don't mind the cold so much, as long as there's plenty of beautiful, fluffy, and occasionally sticky, snow.  The most glorious outdoor scene occurs when crystal-like, one-of-a kind snowflakes flitter down against a clear blue sky to rest on the branches of trees and the end of your nose.  Snow is clearly a gift from God to give us something to look forward to in Minnesota, and there's plenty to go around! :)  


Snow forts, snowball fights, snow angels, snowshoeing, snowmen, sledding, tubing, king of the hill, snowmobiling.  Snow brings many different ways to have fun and get together. On Wednesday my friend Rachel and I went snowshoeing in her woods.  Let me tell you, it was quite an adventure: the two of us trudging through the snow with our flashlights, leaving behind distinct tracks that we decided looked like fish.  It was frightening, in a thrilling sort of way, being in the dark woods with only the pale light of our flashlights guiding our path discussing what we would do if we were to be stranded out there.  Afterwards we were able to come back to a warm house and drink hot cocoa and work on a puzzle while the chilly winds continued to blow right outside.  These are the things about winter that I love.


Friday I was also very thankful for the snow, and I could also say extremely thankful for family and friends.  Rachel and I, along with two other families, had a fun-filled day snow tubing!  This was my first official snow tubing experience, and I don't think I've ever had that much fun. The group of people we went with were amazing: so much energy, adventure, and love.  We were able to tube for two hours.  We started out on the--don't let the name fool you--Bunny Hill; this hill was pretty terrifying despite its title.  After we got comfortable with this beginner hill we moved on to the two big hills made for more experienced tubers, which we definitely considered ourselves to be after the first ten minutes.  These hills were, without exaggeration, pretty much a straight drop to our deaths!  I was scared out of my mind to go down it, but I figured, my friend's four-year-old little brother Johnny could do it, so I could too, right?  And I did!  It was so scary, yet exciting!  We went down all sorts of different ways, frontwards, backwards, two at a time, five and even six at a time.  By the end of the two hours, we were all thoroughly satisfied with our trip.  We then went to a house of one of the families for hot cocoa, pizza, and other delicious goodies.  The fellowship between friends and families was so precious, and I am very thankful to be able to have times like these.







So, yes...winter is cold.  Snow is annoying at times.  But if you really take time to think about it, it has the ability to bring people together. :)


Ashley

Thankfulness:Winter Breaks

Well, I've been away from my computer for several days and haven't had a chance to blog.  However, I have thought of something to be thankful for each day despite not blogging about it, so I will blog about them now. :) Don't worry, I'm not giving up on this yet!


Day 4: Winter Breaks December 29
It's been so nice to have a break from school. I was able to come back home to Austin and see my family and friends. The holiday season also made this break so much fun. I love being able to relax for a couple weeks and do all the fun little things I love to do, but never have time to do such as knitting/crocheting, reading, watching tv, and cooking/baking. 


This break has was longer than most breaks since it was a break from college instead of high school. So, for the first week home, I was able to have the majority of the weekdays alone because my parents were working and my brothers were still in school.  As much as I like to hang out with my family and friends, it is very nice to have some alone time.  During this time I got to sleep in, make coffee, spend quiet time in my devotions, and clean around the house a little.  I love relaxed days by myself!  


On this particular Wednesday, I was very thankful for breaks because I was able to see and have a coffee date with two of my friends from high school, one of them being a foreign exchange student who now attends school in Baltimore.  It was so nice to be able to catch up.  


I am so thankful for the time I have had off to spend with family and friends as well as to rejuvenate myself from the stressfulness that comes with homework and college life.  I am thankful for my college experience and the time away from Austin that makes coming home so rewarding.


Ashley